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| well, it's over. me and sam, are all over, and im okay with it. i just wasnt the same this time, we just arent the same two people anymore. and im okay with that. im going to make a new site, and i'll give you guys the link. but this is the last post for xo_sappysweetlovequotes_xo. enjoy. =]

[oo1] & now, i have to stop because every time i remember this i have to cry a little by myself. i don't know why something that made me so happy then feels so sad now. maybe that's the way it is with best memories.

[oo2] there won't be a better tomorrow if you can't move on from today.

[oo3] the scariest thing about memories is thinking you're going to forget about them

[oo4] it's funny how the people that hurt you the most, are the ones who said that they never would.

[oo5] You cant buy it at a store, or try it on for size. No, love hits you unexpectedly; without a receipt

[oo6] maybe it's time you looked at yourself, and stopped blaming life on someone else.

[oo7] Appreciate what you have & who you have, because the future can take it all away from you.

[oo8] Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever

[oo9] My stomach hurts because people keep feeding me bullshit & I'm gunna throw it all up in their faces.

[o1o] I still sit here thinking about him as if he left me, like I can't manage to let him go. But he was never mine to begin with, & now I'm sitting here all alone, holding onto nothing but a dream.

[o11] So they locked themselves in his car, got lost in each others eyes & sang to the radio. He whispered in her ear & she'd laugh at his silly jokes, even if they were pointless. He'd grab her hand & not let go. He had no idea how happy it made her. She'd rest her head on his shoulder, close her eyes, & listen to their song. When he kissed her forehead, she memorized the touch of his lips. She didn't want to leave anytime soon, & he'd give her his jacket if she said she was cold. It would be 3 in the morning--but they'd still be tangled in each other. She knew he was something special. It was different how he moved her cause even when he told her "goodnight", it still felt like "hello" .

[o12] Cause that`s what life's about. It's about the times where you lay in the grass next to someone you love. It's about the color of the sky, it's about a roaring fire on a winter eve. Everybody hurts, everybody bleeds. Everyone laughs & smiles & loves. & that's all that it is. There's no meaning of life, it's nothing that can be defined. It's a matter of writing your own definition.

[o13] There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new life.

[o14] We spent all night together, laughing at nothing & talking too much. The moonlight was so bright in your eyes. Before I knew it, I was falling.
[o15] Life is made up of years that meant nothing & the moments that meant everything.

[o16] Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying hello again that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life.

[o17] You tell yourself over and over again that it isn't worth it, that it could never last. That the friendship would be ruined. But every time he calls you, you wonder if this will finally be the phone call when he says what you want him to. And everytime you look into his eyes, you're gone again.

[o18] you could be happy and i won't know. you weren't happy the day i watched you go. and all the things i wish i hadn't said, are played on lips til it's madness in my head. is it too late to remind you how we were?

[o19] It's not really sex and it's not really drugs. It's the people in this society that are the source of the problems in the world.

[o2o] Why? Because I'm not the kind of girl to give up like that.

[o21] a song, can take you instantly back to a moment, a place or even a person. no matter what else has changed in you or the world; the one song stays the same. just like that moment (i love this one)

[o22] i think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight, for so long, is because we fear something so great will never happen again.

[o23] its hard to get over people, i mean really get over them. you can start to have feelings for other people, but it doesnt mean youre over them. it just means youre moving on.

[o24] The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give you forever. I love you. -the notebook

[o25] our biggest regrets arent the things we've done, it's the thing we didn't do when we had the chance.

[o26] How many times have we slept side by side but a thousand miles apart? And how many times have we thought we could finish something we could never even start? How many times have I said I love you and I hate you in the same breath? And how many times have we tried to grab something when there was nothing left.

[o27] you have a way of coming easily to me, and when you take you take the very best of me.

[o28] In the last few days, you've made me feel..alive. You made me feel beautiful & intelligent & wanted, & no matter how hard I try, I'll never be able to tell you how much that`s meant to me. ++ The Choice ; Nicholas Sparks *

[o29] Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you, & it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept your or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, & it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love. & who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, & compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends & replacing inner hate with love in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.

[o3o] Basically, I'm saying I'm not perfect. But when I'm with you, I forget that. & it just doesn't matter anymore.

[o31] You are what I never knew I have been looking for all along. ++ PostSecret *

[o32] Never ask yourself what might have been. There's no woulda, coulda, shoulda. Live and love with no regrets. Things might not always work out the way you want them to, but other times they'll turn out even better than you expected.

[o33] So stand on the edge with me. Hold back your fear & see nothing is real till it's gone.

[o34] I was surprised by the thought that feeling alive had nothing to do with happiness.

[o35] Let go of what kills you. & hold onto what keeps you breathing.

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| well, happy new years everyone. i hope yours was good. mine was amazing. i finally got my new years kiss i've always wanted, and i got sam back, all on new years day.
the way he asked me back out was amazing. we're out to eat at pizza hut, (the weather sucked and it was close), and all of a sudden he grabs my hand and says, "alright, i wasn't going to say this, and it mind sound kind of weird, but i can't wait anymore. i was going to wiat for february 17th to do this, because i know how much that date meant to you (referring to feb. 17th 2005, our original anniversary), but i can't wait any longer. i want you to be my girlfriend. i want to start the new year off with you." and then i satrted crying, because im a pussy and i cry at things like that, haha, anyways, so i told him how scared i was to lose him again, and he told him how he'd been trying to earn my trust back for a long time, and i told him okay, and then he said "okay, okay?", then his dad came to pick us up and take us home, and as he walked me to my door and we hugged, and i whispered him, "okay, okay". it was adorable he got so happy and started hugging me and saying i love you like 20 billion times. haha.
lemme tell you, what a way to start the new year. tell me about yours!
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[oo1] Your first love. You know who i'm talking about, because i bet you read the words "First love" and that one boy just came to mind. There's nothing like that first boy you were afraid to love. That one boy you knw it was love, despite what others said. That one boy who changed your expectations and that one boy who you compare all the future boys with. Because deep down inside, you knew he was the one. The one who sets the standards for love.

[oo2] And you're afraid to show a smile cause' you don't want people to overlook the hurt you have in your heart. And you are so scared that they will start to believe that the pain you feel isn't real.

[oo3] There's a line drawn between the beginning and end of anything, And somehow we find hope every time we cross that line.

[oo4] Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. These are the best days of our lives.

[oo5] cause you've got everybody thinking, there's nothing wrong with you. and you fall apart, cause you felt apart.

[oo6] the worst thing you could for love is deny it. so when you find that special someone, don't let anyone or anything get in your way.

[oo7] How’s that for irony, huh? Bad girl throws up on a white picket fence. Don’t be disgusted by me- deal with me, okay? Accept me, and accept the fact that there are people in this world that don’t need saving.

[oo8] our bodies were touching and nothing was said but the way you touched me well you said it all

[oo9] When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story. Everyone has gone through something that has changed them.

[o1o] We are all a little damaged... Some of us hide it better than others, but on some level, we are all torn up. We take it out on others & beat through life carrying it all & we will end up damaging someone else & most of the time, we won't even notice or bother to care because we are busy with our little disaster called life.

[o11] He never asked me to wait for him, and I don't even know if he wanted me to. Hell, I don't even know if I want to, but something told me that when he came back, I was going to be exactly what he wanted. And he would realize that I had been there all this time and he would wonder why he didn't take me along. Somehow, that brought us to our happily ever after.

[o12] I've believed in every single person on this planet besides myself. And that makes life much harder than it probably is.

[o13] Everyday, there is a war :: A war between yourself or between the people in your life. Everyday, we must fight this war. In the end, we either win or lose. By winning, it just means we move on to the next day, to another war left to fight. By losing, we succumb to defeat, giving up until hope is restored.

[o14] Why do we hold back the words we mean the most?

[o15] You were the cure and I was the disease. I'm sorry I couldn't heal you, like you healed me.

[o16] The day I met you my life changed. The way you make me feel is hard to explain. You make me smile in a special kind of way. You make me fall deeper for you everyday and when I look into your eyes, I know its true. There is no one else in this world for me but you.

[o17] Have you ever felt like you've become the worst version of yourself?

[o18] You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not the reason behind that happiness.

[o19] I wanted everything to stay the same, but feelings fade and people change. I'm living every moment like its my last, no longer letting my future be based on my past.

[o2o] Here's to the night we felt alive, And cheers to putting up a fight, And this one's for saving my life.

[o21] no one knows you like a person with whom youve shared a childhood. no one will ever understand you in quite the same way.

[o22] you were there in the beginning, the first person that ever told me i could be more than what i was, & believed it. there isnt anything i wouldnt share with you.

[o23] its really painful to say goodbye to someone else that you dont want to let go, but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should

[o24] Even when we werent a couple, and I had another boy in my life, I still found myself praying at night for you.

[o25] I'm scared as hell to want you, but here I am, wanting you anyway. And fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don't want to lose you. So this is it, this is love. Giving you the power to break me, but trusting you not to.

[o26] Personally, I'd much rather regret something I'd done rather than something I was too afraid to do. -jason statham, London

[o27] she wants to be the girl thats good for him. the one he changes for and the one where even if she's not physically with him, she's always on his mind. and he thinks she's the best thing that's ever happened to him. -laguna beach

[o28] The sun is set in the nighttime sky The stars they cast a glow upon my eyes The art itself a burning ball of light Yeah, it's like our first love was ignited late that night.

[o29] So, what can we do? Hold tight to a fist-full of memories of laughter and lyrics and late-night giggling that ushered in the story of a summer, a summer that loved us all.

[o3o] Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. Love isn't about little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes, pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons and giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile, even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there.

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| so, everything with me and sam is a lot better. like, we're talking again about going back out. he actually asked me back out, about, eh, maybe month ago, and i said no, not yet. because while we were together, there were a lot of problems, and he often didn't treat me all that great. like, everything was my fault, i was stupid, etc. so, i told him, until he can prove to me he'll be different this time around, and that he won't leave me again, and that, he'll actually be willing to work and put effort into it, i won't take him back. he's been doing really good with it to, and i've worked on a few things as well. the other day, i was going to tell him i thought we were ready now, but he told me he didn't. he doesn't feel like he's proved it to me or that he deserves me yet. =] that's a big step right there.
i love him so much, and i know we're going to get back together, and be okay. and i'm so thankful for that.
oh, and merry christmas loves.

[oo1] and all these little girls are striving too hard to be perfect because they already know you have to be perfect to survive.

[oo2] In some ways we grow up. We have families, we get married, divorced, but for the most part, we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow taller, grow older, we are still forever stumbling, forever wondering, forever young.

[oo3] i know it hurts, but its life, and its real, and sometimes it fucking hurts but its life, and it's pretty much all we got

[oo4] It scared me to realize this. To realize how easy it was to become the very person you never wanted to be

[oo5] sometimes you just need to cry & be sad. you need to break down & be torn apart. you need to learn how to pick yourself up & put yourself back together. sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first. cause without sadness, there`s no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

[oo6] He knew he made a mistake. You could see it in his face every time she walked into the room. He wished he wouldn't of done that to her.

[oo7] just because it didnt last forever, doesnt mean it wasnt worth your while.

[oo8] She thinks if she calls him, it just shows weakness, so the hurt goes on with every tear she's cried, ain't it sad to see a good love fall to pieces, chalk another heartbreak up to foolish pride

[oo9] So lets lie in the grass & stare at the stars & live through the moment, figure out who we are.

[o1o] You may think that this is easy for me, but there`s a lot of things you don`t know, you don`t care, you don`t want to see.

[o11] I decided that enough is enough. That since you obviously don't care about me anymore, I’m going to move on. Easier said than done, I suppose. Because at the end of the day, I’m staring out the window with these tears on my cheeks. Just look at what you've done to me.

[o12] I only have two words for you... I'M DONE. After everything I've done for you, every second (& third, fourth, fifth) chance that I gave you, you still break my heart. Every time. But it's over now. I finally realized that I don't deserve this & honestly... you don't deserve me. Yeah I still love you & I probably will for a long time.... but I cant stay here anymore, it hurts too much. I guess this is moving on.

[o13] the tables had finally turned in her favor. now, he was the one who was trying to kiss her, he was trying to stay.

[o14]
This is to pushing on the splintered walls of the world, trying to break free. This is to 4am phone calls and tears that can't be wiped away by tissues. This is to cancer patient dying in the end, because she wasn't strong enough anymore. This is to red wine and cigarettes on the bathroom floor, to the boy that didn't love her back. This is to valued letters and notes that got lost in the washer, torn into a million little pieces. This is for unwanted help, and most needed attention; to the girls that put up away messages in hopes he'll understand. This is to not only the guys being heartbreakers, but the girls as well. This is to the victims and victimizers; to the people that couldn't help it when they bled. This is to those that had their hearts ripped from their sleeves. This is to believing every lie. This is to being sick to my stomach just thinking about him loving someone else. This is to the pain I hold in every day. This is to the escape I thought I found in him. This is to those who live with a heart that has long since been broken. This is to all the "What if?"s and the wishes that'll never come true. This is to feeling so desperate, but can't help it, because all you want is them back. This is to all the words you never said and to the ones we choke on. This is to holding your breath in that one perfect moment and being terrified that you'll blink and it'll all be gone. This is to when it is all gone and you feel like you have nothing left. This is to realizing that it wasn't your fault. And that they're never coming back. This is to those who never got to say goodbye after saying something harsh before they left. This is to everything you thought once meant something and never did. This is to those who feel better aching than empty. This is to what didn't happen. This is to the tomorrows that are just another thing to get through. This is to how I wish I'd never come that close to loving you. This is to realizing that you are your own (and everyone else's) worst enemy. This is to those who are dying to be alive. This is to knowing a relationship may or may not work out, but taking the leap anyway. This is to sticking your finger down your throat, in hopes that they'll accept you. This is to every tear you've wasted on people who never cared. This is to sitting and waiting for your phone to ring. This is to being ignored and trying to being imperfectly perfect This is to finding him, and holding on tight. This is to the girl behind that smile. This is to those movies and magazines, the ones that make girls stop eating, stop breathing... stop caring. This is to wanting to speak the most honest words you've ever spoken in your life, not knowing whether they should bring you closer to living or dying. This is for all of us who cry with dry eyes. This is for those who fall in love in their dreams, and wake up only to wish to be sleeping again. This is to not knowing, and this is to not wanting to know. This is to True Love never ignited. This is to prose and poetry and those with tender hearts. This is to those who'll never get it... those who wonder where love starts. This is to that one person who you think is the kindest, sweetest, smartest, and most beautiful person ever. This is to that one person who means everything. This is to losing that one person. This is to loving him, but having to say no to him. This is to having him in your arms again, but knowing it won't last. This is to those nights where you just can't sleep because every word they said to you replays, over and over. This is to those days when you just stay at home, because your heart is too weak to take in laughing. This those nights on the sidewalk where the two of you were the two of you again after so many years of changing. This is to him telling your secrets that no one is supposed to know. This is to the girl that puts on his jacket when she's cold. And this is to the guy that catches her smelling in his scent. This is to letting go just as he starts to hold on. This is to beautiful boys who are just beautiful friends. This is to the ones that sit at home, lonely, hoping to find someone just like them. This is to the people who constantly want to bring you down because you were successful and they couldn't come close. This is to the boys that turned our hearts to glass just to shatter them and use the pieces to cut the wounds a little deeper. This is to all the times I wish I had said no. This is to all the times I knew what he was doing and I ignored it. This is to that tingly butterfly feeling you get when they're around. This is to the night when feelings changed. This is to the broken mirror and the blood on your ankle. This is to the very first kiss. This is to eye contact, avoiding it, keeping it, trying to hide it. This is to feeling emotionless, and watching yourself bleed to know you still feel. This is to the girl that never gives up, this is to the boy that lets her give up. This is for teaching yourself how to care, when it's the last thing you want to do. This is to the ones who still care, reciting promises of forever. This is to the fish that killed off all the others in the tank and now just won't die. This is to being so in love that it fucking scares you. This is to the words never spoken. This is to the fragile ones and the ones that never let them bruise. This is to those who attempt perfect, but know they'll never achieve it. This is to those who fight for the weak and hopeless. This is to those who never give up on their dreams - no matter what. This is to the girls who pretend to be super girl, just to hide their pain. This is to the boys that made them hurt. This is for the children who cry themselves to sleep at night, wishing that their parent's loved them. This is to those who survived and have become stronger, better people. This is to those who love that person more then they'll ever know, and have to live everyday wondering if they really care about you too.

[o15] Our problem is that we hate change & love it at the same time - What we really want is for things to remain the same, but get better.

[o16] After a while, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand & chaining a soul. You learn that love doesn't always mean learning & company doesn't always mean security. & you begin to learn that kisses aren't always considered contracts & presents aren't always considered promises. After a while, you learn that every sunshine burns if you get too close. So plant your own garden & decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You eventually learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, & you really do have a purpose in life.

[o17] Truth is painful.. Deep down, no one ever wants to hear it. Especially when it hits close to home.

[o18] For a moment, things were going the right way. Everything felt like it was in place. But every once in a while, life throws in something to mess it up just a bit. Not enough to destroy it, but also not enough for it to recover.

[o19] He taught me how to trust myself. He taught me that I should love every flaw. He taught me that [no matter what] I should just make the decision and jump, and not regret it.

[o2o] and than he hits you with that one last promise and you want it to be the truth so bad. you're looking into his eyes & you're crying saying "he's not lying" but you know he is

[o21] most people don't know who they are. that's why they lie. they're afraid someone else will figure it out before they do. -One Tree Hill *

[o22] Sometimes, I just miss that boy. The one who held my hand walking down the street; who's arms I laid in & never wanted to go away. The one who I talked to for hours & told pointless stories to. The one who knew everything about me & liked me anyway. The one who knew exactly what I was saying even if I didn't, & helped me when I had no clue what to do. The one who showed me what love was & what it was like to need someone there. The one who could only make me cry & hurt me like no other guy could. Those eyes that said everything, that sense of sarcasm that was always there; the way even he couldn't stop from falling in love. That even though we fought constantly & couldn't stand each other, we couldn't leave each other's side. Something is still there; something that never left me the day that boy broke my heart in two. Something like your first love that wasn't ready to end. Something that makes your stomach flip at the brush of a hand or arm. Something that makes it so much harder to know that he's not yours anymore. Something that makes you want to hide away & cry all those tears, because suddenly all of those memories come back & it almost hurts worse to know that it's all out of control. And you just miss everything about that boy that you don't think is ever coming back.

[o23] We always inevitably find ourselves wanting to run back to the ones we used to love, for some reason, thinking it would work out differently the second time around.

[o24] Remember, that the best relationship is one where your love for each other is greater than your need for each other.

[o25] Pain is knowing you are right for each other, just not right now.

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| everything is the same and all so different at the same time. i don't even know anymore.
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[oo1] it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. it's funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. it's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. when feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. when you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start.

[oo2] maybe the best thing to do is stop figuring our where youre going, & just enjoy where youre at.

[oo3] What do you want me to say; we can be friends? You don't get it. When you really love someone you can't just be their friend. And I don't want half of you.

[oo4] There's always that one person. No matter how long it's been. Or how badly they've treated you, if they say I love you.. you will say it back.

[oo5] are you here because you need me? or are you here because you need someone?

[oo6] Cause in the end you're just a typical guy. Dragging a girl along cause you're not really sure what you want

[oo7] I get my hopes up & I watch them fall everytime. Another color turns to grey & it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away. I'm leaving today 'cause I've gotta do what's best for me.

[oo8] There's nothing more valuable than having someone in your life that reminds you of who you are.

[oo9] Do whatever makes you happy cause in the end, you're the only one who's guaranteed to be there.

[o1o] It's not okay because he made me laugh. Because I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than who I am when I was with him. Because I don't believe that stuff about finding your other half, but because I do believe that what you look for is someone who makes you a better person when you're with them, who changes you for the better, who makes you the best person you can possibly be, & because I thought I had found that in him.

[o11] Love means loving someone even when you don't feel like liking them that day.

[o12] You tell me, "This is it, this is the end". I hold my breath, fight the tears and say I understand. But as soon as we walk our separate ways, I let my breath go and start to cry. Cool october air fills my lungs and the sidewalk soaks up my tears. I have never been this thankful for a long walk alone. I just wish the walk was long enough.

[o13] too many people miss the silver lining because theyre expecting gold.

[o14] She's not over what happened. She`s still hurting. Songs come on the radio that make her remember that he was the one that broke her heart.

[o15] You know, people are always asking 'are you okay?' but they're never really expecting the truth... cause the reality of the matter is, if i was okay, you wouldn't really have to wonder.

[o16] but it's getting really hard to keep up with everything and all. i just wish i knew what was going on.

[o17] sometimes we take for granted the people in our lives that mean so much, we finally realize that it can be too late. take advantage of every minute. have no regrets and never forget the people that made you who you are now.

[o18] we're just afraid, period. our fear is free floating. we're afraid this isn't the right relationship or we're afraid it is. we're afraid they won't like us or we're afraid they will. we're afraid of failure or we're afraid success. we're afraid of dying young and afraid of growing old. we're more afraid of life than death.

[o19] it's funny how you still love the person, but you just stop needing them like you used to. -Dawson's Creek

[o2o] "sometimes loving someone means letting them go." bullshit. love means holding onto someone just as hard as you can because if you don't, one blink and they might disappear forever.

[o21] I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appriciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. -Marilyn Monroe
[o22] i think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you. -dawson's creek

[o23] because that's what you do when you're in love. you fucking stick it out. [o24] far too often people look without really seeing, eat without really tasting, hear without really listening, say without really believing. they seem to only exist without really living.

[o24] a song, can take you instantly back to a moment, a place, or even a person. no matter what else has changed in you or the world; that one song stays the same. just like that moment.

[o25] Sometimes you have to test someone. Not cause you don`t trust them, but to see how much they`ll sacrifice for you. & sometimes you have to let them go; not cause you suddenly stopped loving them, but to see if they love you enough to come back.

[o26] are you doing what you're doing today because it's what you want to do, or because it's what you were doing yesterday?

[o27] love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to our own.

[o28] sometimes you just gotta put your self out there it might be awkward but in the long run you'll be happy you did it

[o29] We scream our insecurities and mutter our apologies
[o3o] I hate the fact that I have to leave. But I know if I don't, I never will it's time to move on, I have to move on.

[o31] You always disappoint me. It's kind of like our inside joke except it's not funny.

[o32] But when I look in the mirror, I see a girl who's been through so much and yet, still finds a way to smile at the past. She still loves with all her heart or what's left of it... & when you see her walk down the hall, I can guarantee you she'll have her head up high faking a smile just one last time at all those who try & break her but never will.

[o33] When you think you've lost it all and the words are harder than the fall, that's when you find yourself and you realize you've gotta do what's best for you.

[o34] I will always remember you as you are right now to me. You were asleep while I gathered my things in the dark. The burns on my fingers were all that was left of the spark. Didn't want to wake you, cause I knew I couldn't stay. I'm looking forward to looking back on these days. And I'm fine, but I'm not okay.

[o35] But we understand each other & we care about each other, & I believe that years from now we still will

[o36] love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. love is a battle. love is a war. love is growing up.

[o37] Sorry that I ever loved you, Sorry that I cared, Sorry that we've taken for granted the love we shared; Sorry for the waiting, Sorry to waste your time, Sorry if I’m not worth it, you don't have to be mine; Sorry for mistaking something I thought was true, Sorry if you don't understand why I do what I do; Sorry for my feelings as if they're not enough, Sorry if we can't work through all this stuff; Sorry if I’m cramping your lifestyle or getting in your way, Sorry if I don't say the things you want me to say; Sorry if I don't measure up to what you want me to be, Sorry I can't be enough to make you just want me; Sorry for apologizing, but I don't know what else to do, Sorry if my dreams only consist of me and you; Sorry I ever met you, Sorry I’m not enough for you, I’m Sorry I love you the way I do.

[o38] I know you're sorry; I just don't know if that's good enough.

[o39] As I've grown, I've learned several things. Life is full of disappointments and people you trusted will sooner or later let you down. I've learned that often those you love will love someone else and there's only one way to fall; fast and hard. I've learned that out of thousands of smiles, it takes one to touch your heart. I've found that words can be deceiving, but the truth always lies in a person's eyes. I've learned that everything can change in the blink of an eye and tears often come without invitation. I've learned crying can make us stronger and there is never too much love to go around. I've learned that prejudice helps no one and that weapons don't hurt people, people hurt people. I've learned sticks and stones may leave cuts and bruises but harsh words leave scars. I've found that every time you give someone a piece of your heart, it's a piece that you will never get back. I've learned the past is meant to be put behind us and we can't dwell on regrets, for what's done is done. I've learned that trusting yourself is the first step and that forgiving is remembering that helps your own heart more then theirs. I've found that family isn't always blood and everyone is someone's hero. I've learned life is unexpected and that God can do anything. I've learned some things aren't meant to be understood and that only time heals. I've found that imagination is our greatest gift and that we are meant to dream for a reason. I've learned it is never too late to fall in love and that being beautiful is all on the inside. Mistakes are our best teachers and everything happens for a reason. Only then can you live life to its full and true potential.

[o4o] Sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything. Raises your standards, makes you laugh, & makes you feel like you. There's something about him that you can't put into words, & even though you're not even with him, you don't want to let him go.

[o41] Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person who can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, & no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know its a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. The one person you know your better off with out but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside you wouldn't know what to do with out them. The one person that you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to over look it. Because you love him.

[o42] I think I noticed when things started to change. The hugs were quicker, the phone calls were shorter, and they weren't every night. We didn't hurry to the place where we said we'd meet. The 'I love you's felt more like a forced, daily rountine, and really had no meaning. When we saw each other, the smiles weren't as bright, or as big. Our thoughts weren't only of each other. We seemed uninterested, we felt unloved. We had too many doubts. I think I noticed when things started to change.

[o43] And even though they didn't end up together forever like she thought they would, she knew she'd remember that grab-at-your-heart blinding he's-my-world, nothing-else-matters-but-him feeling forever.

[o44] the world may never know the truth about your life, that's because they don't care to. but, when you find the one who wants to know every detail of it, they're the ones to keep.

[o45] i understood that he didn't want me around anymore. but it made life seem black and white, flat and dimensional. i craved the oxygen and color he brought. he had changed life, and now it just couldn't change back.

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